Anorexia question and weight. *potential trigger warning*?

Hi. Ive had anorexia for many years now. The last time I went inpatient I was at a certain weight. My measurements and the way I look are the same as

Hi. I've had anorexia for many years now. The last time I went inpatient I was at a certain weight. My measurements and the way I look are the same as when I went inpatient the last time. But, I weighed myself this morning, and it is 15 pounds heavier than when I looked like this the last time. I remember being at this current weight before, and my bra size was a 34B and my thighs fully touched, as I have narrow hips. But now, here I am at this weight again but my bra size is 28-30A. I was a size 0-1. Now I am a size 10 in kids. I know vanity sizing and stuff... but I have some of my clothes from before too (sizes 0-1), and they are way too big. I have a thigh gap, and measurements are the same as when I was 15 pounds lighter. When I was at this weight before, my thighs were 3 inches bigger, my collarbones didn't show, and a bunch of other things. Same as when I was 80. But now at 95, my thighs are 3 inches smaller than last time I was 95. I don't know how to explain it. Why is this? Because my muscle obviously wasted away before, same as now. I AM THE SAME HEIGHT AS I WAS BEFORE. It was scary to see it this high. But I look like I did when I was 80? I'm so confused. same height....

OK I'M SO SORRY FOR USING NUMBERS!!!!!!!! I don't want to trigger anyone but it was just something I have been confused about all day, and I don't know how else to ask or explain it.

Thank you!

or:Hi. I've had anorexia for many years now. The last time I went inpatient I was at a certain weight. My measurements and the way I look are the same as when I went inpatient the last time. But, I weighed myself this morning, and it is 15 pounds heavier than when I looked like this the last time. I remember being at this current weight before, and my bra size was a 34B and my thighs fully touched, as I have narrow hips. But now, here I am at this weight again but my bra size is 28-30A. I was a size 0-1. Now I am a size 10 in kids. I know vanity sizing and stuff... but I have some of my clothes from before too (sizes 0-1), and they are way too big. I have a thigh gap, and measurements are the same as when I was 15 pounds lighter. When I was at this weight before, my thighs were 3 inches bigger, my collarbones didn't show, and a bunch of other things. Same as when I was 80. But now at 95, my thighs are 3 inches smaller than last time I was 95. I don't know how to explain it. Why is this? Because my muscle obviously wasted away before, same as now. I AM THE SAME HEIGHT AS I WAS BEFORE. It was scary to see it this high. But I look like I did when I was 80? I'm so confused. same height.... OK I'M SO SORRY FOR USING NUMBERS!!!!!!!! I don't want to trigger anyone but it was just something I have been confused about all day, and I don't know how else to ask or explain it. Thank you!

or:The real issue is that unless you are in the 5 foot tall range at 95 pounds you are underweight and throwing out fake concerns about thigh size to cover it is wrong and sick.You need to be in therapy and back with your therapist immediately. You need to stop trying to self-diagnose and go get help. You know it just as well as I do. You are anorexic and have not completed your therapy and are not in recovery.Good luck!

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