Could you please help me with my problem? I'm a mess, I am so scared and desperate?
Im 19 years old and Ive been dealing with a serious problem for 2 years. Im an educated, cultured and mature person in the means of a random 19 year o
I'm 19 years old and I've been dealing with a serious problem for 2 years. I'm an educated, cultured and mature person in the means of a random 19 year old guy and I really lose because of my qualities. I've never been found handsome or attractive and people always approached me with prejudice. Girls always avoided me because they found me short and not spoiled. I find myself good enough I don't have any problem with myself but people don't like me. I am so sad for many days and I am just so scared that I will never have the right person in my life. I don't even give myself a chance that I can have a girlfriend. Whenever I look at the websites about this thing, young girls tell the exact same thing. They don't consider me as a guy. For a year, I'm so desperate because whenever I go outside, I see couples hand to hand and this makes me so sad and my whole day ends just right there seeing that. I hate them and I am so jealous about them. Girls like jackasses, they fall in love with a guy who ruins their life and I lose just because I'm good spiritually. I wasn't a person like that in the past. Now I don't believe in miracles or God or anything. I want to cry and harm those people who harm me because of my identity. I can't cry but I actually die inside my soul. I argue with my parents about this loneliness issue and they also are bad now. They say that I'll eventually find a girl but I can't believe them, do they really think that a short, mature and good hearted guy like me can win in this life? I can't help myself. I did everything I could this year to have friends in college but they used my goodness and they neglected me. Because of this, I will probably go to a better college but that will be my second year and I'm just feeling so weak and worried about how I'm going to make friends over there. Please help me, my life is going to end up tragically. Do you really believe that I'll find a good woman and be happy?
or:I'm 19 years old and I've been dealing with a serious problem for 2 years. I'm an educated, cultured and mature person in the means of a random 19 year old guy and I really lose because of my qualities. I've never been found handsome or attractive and people always approached me with prejudice. Girls always avoided me because they found me short and not spoiled. I find myself good enough I don't have any problem with myself but people don't like me. I am so sad for many days and I am just so scared that I will never have the right person in my life. I don't even give myself a chance that I can have a girlfriend. Whenever I look at the websites about this thing, young girls tell the exact same thing. They don't consider me as a guy. For a year, I'm so desperate because whenever I go outside, I see couples hand to hand and this makes me so sad and my whole day ends just right there seeing that. I hate them and I am so jealous about them. Girls like jackasses, they fall in love with a guy who ruins their life and I lose just because I'm good spiritually. I wasn't a person like that in the past. Now I don't believe in miracles or God or anything. I want to cry and harm those people who harm me because of my identity. I can't cry but I actually die inside my soul. I argue with my parents about this loneliness issue and they also are bad now. They say that I'll eventually find a girl but I can't believe them, do they really think that a short, mature and good hearted guy like me can win in this life? I can't help myself. I did everything I could this year to have friends in college but they used my goodness and they neglected me. Because of this, I will probably go to a better college but that will be my second year and I'm just feeling so weak and worried about how I'm going to make friends over there. Please help me, my life is going to end up tragically. Do you really believe that I'll find a good woman and be happy?
or:i am 19 year old in phoenix and i can relate. im here if you need to talk
