I think I may be in love with my best friend?

I have known C for about 6 years. He and I dated when we were freshmen in high school and broke up after about 8 months. (I broke up with him, I dont

I have known C for about 6 years. He and I dated when we were freshmen in high school and broke up after about 8 months. (I broke up with him, I don't think at the time I was ready for anything serious and I felt that with him it would turn into exactly that) We decided we were better friends. We stayed friends for a year or so and then he switched schools and I had move the year after that. We quit talking at this point and both went our separate ways. Just recently two years ago I moved back and he and I have been hanging out a lot since. When I first moved back I lived with my Bf of the time (B) and after B and I broke up, C and I were at it again, not dating, just messing around, enjoying each others company. I missed him. and I know he missed me. After a month or so he found a girl and I found a guy so naturally we stopped our encounters and continued on being best friends. Over the last year I have slowly began to realize that I think about him almost every day. My Bf (R) and I live together in my apartment. I have only known R for 5 months, but I love him, not like I love C though and that is what scares me. R is someone who you learn to love, the little things make your heart skip a beat and you don't want to be without him. C on the other hand never leaves my mind.... not even when I am with R..... I feel like I'm cheating on him with my heart and honestly it hurts, a lot. I can't control it. I've tried not talking to C, not hanging out with him, not talking to anyone he talks to so I didn't have to hear about him. But I always end up talking to him again, He is my best friend after all. I can't go another 3 years without talking to him again. It hurt too much the first time. I thought maybe it was just me wanting to hang out with my best friend again and chill. Then I realized that that isn't it at all, I want to be with C. His brother, sister, and mom already told me that they can see the two of us being together in the long run. And really, I can too. I don't know what to do. I know I love him, but I don't know if its something I should tell him. or just not and let things play out. I do know that I can never Unlove this man though. He took a piece of my heart and gave me a piece of his own to fill that hole, something like that just doesn't go away. But what am I suppose to do, be single my whole life and hope one day he realizes I love him. or find someone who makes me happy, but not someone who could ever compare with C. Or just tell him and possibly make our whole friendship awkward. I just, I'm lost here, I really would appreciate your view/opinion on this whole ordeal. Please and thank you.

or:I have known C for about 6 years. He and I dated when we were freshmen in high school and broke up after about 8 months. (I broke up with him, I don't think at the time I was ready for anything serious and I felt that with him it would turn into exactly that) We decided we were better friends. We stayed friends for a year or so and then he switched schools and I had move the year after that. We quit talking at this point and both went our separate ways. Just recently two years ago I moved back and he and I have been hanging out a lot since. When I first moved back I lived with my Bf of the time (B) and after B and I broke up, C and I were at it again, not dating, just messing around, enjoying each others company. I missed him. and I know he missed me. After a month or so he found a girl and I found a guy so naturally we stopped our encounters and continued on being best friends. Over the last year I have slowly began to realize that I think about him almost every day. My Bf (R) and I live together in my apartment. I have only known R for 5 months, but I love him, not like I love C though and that is what scares me. R is someone who you learn to love, the little things make your heart skip a beat and you don't want to be without him. C on the other hand never leaves my mind.... not even when I am with R..... I feel like I'm cheating on him with my heart and honestly it hurts, a lot. I can't control it. I've tried not talking to C, not hanging out with him, not talking to anyone he talks to so I didn't have to hear about him. But I always end up talking to him again, He is my best friend after all. I can't go another 3 years without talking to him again. It hurt too much the first time. I thought maybe it was just me wanting to hang out with my best friend again and chill. Then I realized that that isn't it at all, I want to be with C. His brother, sister, and mom already told me that they can see the two of us being together in the long run. And really, I can too. I don't know what to do. I know I love him, but I don't know if its something I should tell him. or just not and let things play out. I do know that I can never Unlove this man though. He took a piece of my heart and gave me a piece of his own to fill that hole, something like that just doesn't go away. But what am I suppose to do, be single my whole life and hope one day he realizes I love him. or find someone who makes me happy, but not someone who could ever compare with C. Or just tell him and possibly make our whole friendship awkward. I just, I'm lost here, I really would appreciate your view/opinion on this whole ordeal. Please and thank you.

or:Like a person we need to work hard to feel, like he was loud told him, buried in his own heart, you also will be very painful, for your happiness efforts, in order to you a better future efforts, bold told him.

or:well I always go by this you want to feel love instead of just be in it goes a long ways this way but I think c is the one you want and be devoted to

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